5 lessons mania taught me

Good morning my lovelies! I hope you are taking good care of yourselves, staying safe and staying home? Let us get straight into the post that was promised, these are five lessons mania has taught me, no doubt there is still more to learn… 1. Anything can be inspiration When in mania, for me, everything is magical. Every single thing I do, think or feel is like seeing colour for the first time; everything is wondrous, fantastic, special. I feel intrinsically inspired, nothing is mundane. Because of this way of viewing things, I have learned that truly anything can cause inspiration at the most unexpected times. I have looked at myself and decided to make different choices, for example. I have found new reasons for living. I now have a larger appreciation for every single thing in life when I am well, not just manic. 2. Time really is relative Personally, when an episode of mania occurs I have what feels like truly limitless energy. I find that there is more time in the day and can get everything done in seconds. I work and work and work and work, yet it is just past midday. I can clean and tidy and read and play, but it is not even tea time. Time seems to go much slower, I get everything I can think of done and more. Unlike when I am well and the days can drag or go by too quickly without me accomplishing much. When I am manic, time is just a social construct I care not to follow. 3. There is light in this world, hard as it may be to see sometimes This is self-explanatory but one that needs to be mentioned as a strong reminder. In this world, in the mainstream media we all consume, all that we see is negative occurrences and things we don’t agree with. It feels like all there is to the world is suffering, hate, I could go on. Having mania allows me to see only the good, or be the good myself. I am still learning how to do this when well and I am getting better as time goes one. (Yes, it can take years, you are basically unlearning what society has conditioned you with.) 4. There is such a thing as too much A reason why an episode of mania can be dangerous for me is that I often don’t realise I am in mania until I am close to coming out of it or am already back to being stable or have crashed into a depressive episode. I am slowly learning to curb riskier behaviours by becoming teetotal, and keeping an eye on my spending. Mania with alcohol makes me love said alcohol and want to party at 9am just because. Mania and money makes we want to endlessly treat myself. I struggle with moderation, in everything, I always have. I restrict/binge food to extreme lengths in certain moods. I either party all the time or not at all, I am currently opting for not at all. I have learned that too much has a lot of risks for me and when I am stable I need to put in safety measures to prepare for any mania that may come my way. Doing too much causes a bigger fall back down to earth in to depression which causes more shock to the system. 5. That everything is temporary This is a very bittersweet lesson. There is both joy and sadness with the realisation of mania being temporary. In mania, nothing seems like quite enough, there is always something that has to be done or bought or said or shown. It is an endless wheel that never stops spinning. So it is quite nice to come back down sometimes to just rest and enjoy being, something I have struggled with since I was young. But that energy is a wonderful energy to have, endless positivity and caring and love. Why wouldn’t we bottle it? Because it is not human. Humans feel every spectrum of emotion and it’s a good thing, every emotion serves a purpose, which I hope to discuss at a later date. There is such a thing as toxic positivity because if we were constantly hyped and happy, we would say no to sadness and basically say to ourselves, we can’t feel. Much love and happiness to you, L x

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